I have been busy. I know, I know, you are too...but, please allow me to whine a bit.
4days of work, 1 day off, 5 days of work, 1 day off, and now I am getting ready for a week of
6 days of work to be followed by...
1 day off....
And work hasn't been all that great. Lots of people whining about stuff that really isn't THAT important.
Why do people threaten librarians? They must have a very difficult life if venting on me makes them feel better.... But does it REALLY make them feel better?
When you are angry and let that anger persist, all it does is consume your energy.
I really don't think it is worth it.
So...while I was being hollered at for not having a particular book at the library (it is not in my power to do anything about it...so very sorry), I decided to meditate.
Right in the middle of being hollered at...I straightened up my back, set my chin straight, looked directly at the hollerer and said....
"yes, I understand" ... repeatedly like a mantra.
I sort of zoned in by zoning out and freaked out the hollerer. hehehe
But this made me think about what the rest of the world thinks about the Japanese people.
Quiet, subdued, polite, tranquil, zen-like....what do you think?
Of course, like any other nation there are stereotypes and much more. You can't really label a whole people, can you?
I have met some angry people over the past couple of months and they have made me wonder...what happened to the mild mannered Japanese?
So, I made comfort food (which is an amazing feat for me)
Pumpkin soup, mushroom, eggplant and goya pizza with marinated beans and peppers...
and I called my mom.According to her it was all an illusion from the beginning. "Foreigners think Japanese people are polite because Japanese tend to cram their bad attitudes into the closet when they are with foreigners. They are afraid of being disgraced. But with each other, Japanese can be rude, harsh....mean."
My mom has never really liked her own people that much.
So, I thought I would think about it myself.
Maybe it has nothing to do with nationality.
Maybe it's me.
I can't cope with being around angry people. They make me angry for making me uncomfortable.
I'd like to fight back but I know that that is like "oil on a fire"(hi ni abura wo sosogu)...it will just make matters worse.
Or maybe it's the Moon...
But then again, maybe someone stole the zen from Japan.
Maybe there is some kind of zen sucking vampire on the loose. In that case, I will guard my "peace of mind" with my life! I don't care if the vampire turns out to look just like Robert Pattinson... it will not suck anything from me.... except a little excess fat wouldn't be minded at all ;-)
To keep my mind from collapsing....
...on this very treasured day off, I am still waiting to hear when my next job interview is... while I read....
and meditate/yoga, and do a bit of shodo, Japanese calligraphy...my style...
Here is a more simple one for "dream" (yume夢) ...
(There is an amazing shodo artist named Kunishige Tomomi. I can't find an official website but there was one example of her work for the word "festival" (matsuri) over here.)
I am also working on my next "i-ro-ha" series. The next character is "chi"... and will include words like
chyouchin (lantern) ...'tis the season for lanterns and summer festivals in Japan.
My search to find the lost zen will continue...